Dear God....

Dear God...
It's been long time i wrote to you.However i'll be talking to you everyday....
But whenever i write you letter, i feel a kind of peace in my heart.

God, i think life is indeed very simple.. it's our mind,beliefs,fears,expectations and perceptions which make it very complicated...

i always wondered when i read the quote, "live the life in present moment.don't live in past or future".

but now i have realized to some extent, what "living the life in present" means.

most of the times when i will be doing an activity, like i am riding to my college, i will be thinking about many things.

i will be thinking about the classes on that day, or about the fight i had with my bro before i left my home or something else... [believe me, sometimes i'll be day dreaming too ;)]. sometimes i will be comparing how the 'riding' resembles to the "journey of life"...[a kind of philosophical thought] 

But one day i just felt the joy of riding.That feel of freedom or independence or.. (as my best friend Neetu says, "feel like a bird").. since that day, i thought of just 'living' that moment of 'riding' and decided not to think of anything else and now i really enjoy riding more than before.

i just thought how about applying this policy to every part of my life??..

when i listen any song, i try to feel the voice of that singer, the beauty of the blend of instrumental music in the background along with the singer's voice....a kind of "music meditation"... it gives a kind of peace, a joy.. something i can't put into words.. but something that makes me feel very happy... something that "Heals"...
i feel like am living this life, completely in "Present".

But it's not that easy, God. for a moment i feel like i'v started living this life in "Present"... yet the past disturbs again.of course there are lots and lots of happy memories. sometimes the thought strikes that i can't get back those happy moments again, that thought..... disturbs a lot, God.
every song that i listen makes me think of someone or some incident or something like that.... sometimes making me smile and sometimes filling my eyes with tears....

even the thought of future, it plays with my mind.. sometimes it makes me day dream and sometimes feel very insecure....
why is that so difficult to just Live this Life in the "Present"....??

I think i should learn "living in the present" along with the past and future too.
using the 'past' to keep the Hope alive and to learn from my own mistakes.
using 'future' to dream... to dream big... that's what keeps me alive....
if this is followed, i feel i can really have a better Present.. :)
[BetterPresent= present+past+future]

Hmmm... it's not that easy... but not impossible too..
I'll keep trying.. i know you will help me. :)

God, just few days back when i was listening the song "Tum Ho...." (Rockstar), one of my most favorite songs, i thought about you...
those lines.. they made me think of you, God... :)

Love you God,
- your daughter...